Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Broken Hearts

I need to go to the mender of broken hearts.

Two days ago, I decided to clear the air with a young man I have been dating/friends with about where we were going with this. He said he didn't see us compatible and thus, reasoned to not bring anything up. As commendable as that is, it is not of we act all "friendly" together (I.e. confiding with each other about life to doing favors for each other). After the phonecall, I went to sleep, first thanking God that the ambiguity in the air is clear but two, not spend ANY MORE TIME with a random...even IF he is Christian.

Well, then I went to school and low and behold, stressed out left and right. Perhaps to the point of contemplating my life of "how I got here?" and "do you really want to be in grad school?"

Hah! Before the study session ended I called my mentor and told her I was so overwhelmed by this crap.

You know, I know the devil is having a frenzy seeing me freak out. I am just tired of FEELING so hurt and torn inside.

I'm like,"Lord where are you?"

Thursday, September 6, 2012

from my devotional today...all we need is REST

Pride, self-importance, creates a myopic world. You and your problems are the center of the universe. Every trial looks huge, and God seems far away and small. Fearful and self-absorbed, you may feel your life is careening out of control. David reminds you not to take yourself so seriously. Our God is unbelievably powerful, supervising gazillions of galaxies. He can hold you in His strong arms and protect you. Get off your high horse and humble yourself before Him.

Psalm 131
Lord, I have given up my pride
    and turned away from my arrogance.
I am not concerned with great matters
    or with subjects too difficult for me.
Instead, I am content and at peace.
As a child lies quietly in its mother's arms,
    so my heart is quiet within me.
Israel, trust in the Lord
    now and forever! Good News Version