Friday, June 29, 2012

Purpose as a young woman

The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your love, O Lord, endures forever -- do not abandon the works of your hands.

I am just a young woman trying to get a grasp of the world around me.  I am trying to get my feet wet while not being dismayed by life's troubled situations. I am also learning that it does make a difference in what impressions you leave on people.  It really does.  But I also remember that God has the final say in everything.  He is the sustainer of life and He can truly make things happen if you follow suit to what His commands are. 

Today I almost wanted to curl up in a ball when I found out about how everyone, despite living in different coasts, will know each other.  That connections are important.  The fact is, right now, I'm trying to get into a program and realize that people do know each other.  Its important to be respectful and professional. 

It's funny - I feel like an old woman: the things I know today, I wish I knew yesterday. 

Seems like the story of my life.  It's like, I asked God to grant me patience, wisdom, and understanding...right now I'm wondering, what is the wisest thing to do right now? All I can think of is be honest. I don't want to fluff anything up, but truly be myself.

Wednesday, June 27, 2012


Being a scientist at a lab can be quite challenging when the topic of religion pops up. To keep the sanity in the workplace, people do NOT talk about it. If they do, rest assure, they will likely start a conversation with the following statements: "Big bang theory," "Quantum Mechanics,""Darwinism," among others. Yet, knowing that Niel deGrasse Tyson's stance on physics, religion, and other controversial topics makes me think: great. I'm being sarcastic here. He claims that he isn't an atheist and is agnostic, however, I'm sure all the atheists are screaming, "We just lost one!"

Let's not talk about religion folks! I want to reach you with SCIENCE: thats what I believe in
Anyways, to continue, I wore a t-shirt at work today called, "I Pray" from an organization I was affiliated with in college. Now, lets be straight: I used to care about wearing this t-shirt at work, let alone in California where rampaging atheists can glare at me.  But as I grew stronger in my relationship with God, I realized: "Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, 'He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.'"

Basically, it doesn't matter what people say.  People will ALWAYS have something to say but I have to remain true to myself. People are fickle! However, I do NOT put my trust in man but in God. He has the final say. I will try to encourage people who are the walking dead that you can PRAY to Jesus and get the salvation you need. Because lets be honest: science is not God. It is HIS creation and people have perverted it into some sort of religion.

Which is why I decided to keep my shirt on. As many atheists are running around here screaming: there is no God, there should be twice as many Christians screaming: MY GOD IS GREATER!

So yeah, why are atheists so bold but Christians acting like wussies? It's an unfortunate condition and right now I know thats what the enemy wants. To bring me down in my mindset and my own confidence.

Nope. Not happening.