Sunday, December 16, 2012

To live is Christ, Christ alone

After watching Francis Chan's sermon on "Whats So Great About Jesus," I did not expect to be completely moved at the end of the sermon. I'm actually very sick to my stomach thinking about these three men he mentioned from Turkey. These men were followers of Christ to the end. They believed in the saving power of Christ, His Word, and His Power! I cannot fathom how these men held on for three hours of complete torture from the hands of the Muslim men who mutilated their bodies. Christ alone...Christ alone!

The surprising thing about this was how Francis stated stated a question of whether or not these guys thought that it was worth it to bear all of what happened? Now that they are in heaven, do you think a year from now, 100 years from now, a million years from now, would still say it was worth it? And for the CROWN of suffering for Christ?

My God. This isn't some milk - this is pure raw meat. This is so hard to God...I cannot even wrap my mind around this. There are plenty of people who are suffering and dying for the message of Christ's saving power...its impeccable that as Christians, we think of where we are now...but can we say that we want to SUFFER for the Gospel? We think that suffering is dealing with someone not agreeing to Christ's doctrine but the men in Turkey SUFFERED physically while watching their friends suffer in front of them. ONLY CHRIST ALONE can offer such solace and peace. My GOD. MY GOD. He is SO WORTHY TO BE PRAISED.

How dare we not even thank HIM in the morning? He has BLESSED us tremendously with life.  God never said that life will not have trials or tribulations...thats not what being a Christian is about. Its knowing that Christ is with you always. HIS saving power. HIS EVERLASTING LOVE. My God.!

Friday, December 14, 2012

Butternut Squash Mac-N-Cheese Meal

This meal was exquisite! I found this recipe on Oh She and I have to say...I could NOT find any nutritional yeast (which gives a thick texture to the faux-cheese sauce) so I ended up using real cheese. Well, either way, I took the cheese sauce, blended it with the roasted butternut squash and reheated it, and poured it on my pasta. It was refreshing! I am going to start doing this vegetarian thing now...but first, I got to bake my chicken legs. =D

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Tis the season to be jolly!

Hey ALL.

Want to buy me stuff for the holidays (little things like razors, books, etc)?

Check this out:

Ahh I'd appreciate it! <3

Friday, November 23, 2012

What am I thankful for...

Well its Black Friday, but I didn't get a chance to relish in all the blessings that God has provided for me.
So here goes!

1. Being in California has been an absolute blessing. I prayed and asked God that if there were a time for me to come to this beautiful place then I'd be happy to be there at the correct appointed time. And here I am. I've been able to live in the Bay and now I'm in southern California...dream come true! I'm about to see Hollywood for the first time. Major blessings.
2. Graduate school was unexpected. I have to admit, there was a huge part of me that was reluctant in trying again and again and God opened a door. The department I'm in is amazing.  The people are extremely supportive (in their own way) and they are as real as ever. I love the honesty and the ability to come as I am without being judged. Granted, the first couple of months were excruciating hell but it was worth it. God brought me through it. All the way through it and I have one more month before my first semester is done.
3. Healing has never been easy. I think I'm coming to a place where I can see ex-friends or exes that were held dear in my heart without cringing. Sometimes I dream of these people and I don't feel much of anything.  I think time and a lot of praying helps me heal and that I am grateful.
4. My brothers are all preparing for school. I'm so glad my older brother is back in school, my young brother is looking into huge ivy league schools, and my sister is using her book smarts to open her own business...its a blessing! I see such growth in everyone!
5. My mom and sister and I are growing together. This past summer was extremely difficult but after a huge conversation that ensued the truth in all of us, I believe God is helping us be real with each other. It's hard but I think with everyone voicing out their concerns quickly, it makes life easier.
6. I'm grateful that despite how my relationship is with my father, I know I have a Father in Heaven. Its hard sometimes to talk to my earthly father but Jesus is so faithful. When I'm upset, salty, whatever, He's listen. Thank you Jesus. =)

There are many other things I'm grateful for, like my boat trip, yacht party at work, and a bunch of hiking trips with my church folks...but all in all...2012 is a very memorable year. Love sustains. :)

Wednesday, October 31, 2012


We all seek comfort one way or another.

It just depends on whether or not you know that you are the "comforter" or the "comfort-ee".

I reckon to be neither [at least right now in my stage of life]. There is way too much at stake to put "comforting" emotions out there. I didn't realize that the way American society is nowadays, people honestly do not care how much they drain their "friends" or "buddies". The ultimate comforter is Christ, and people who don't go to Him, will only fool themselves and keep looking for comfort in all the wrong places.

Food, entertainment, people, whatever that would hide the real truth - your attention should be in Christ.

End of story.

Sunday, October 21, 2012

There's Got to be More to Life

Just finished a conversation with my awesome girlfriend, who encouraged me to see God's love and promises. I had been in such a terrible mood but did not realize that all the characteristics that I have exhibited were not negatives but mere positives that should not be ignored.

I am dedicated to my church family, despite the distant from my current location.
I am passionate about my education and because of this, display passion for God as well.
I am extremely loved and sought out for, because those I have not seen in young adult ministry have been asking for me, even though I was drawing away.
I am thought of because God has simply been obvious of His love for me - the beautiful sunsets with the backdrop of palm trees, small babies, puppies, and just great conversations with loved ones. God has given me what I have asked for: being in a graduate program to living in the city. He gave me my own room and a place where people feed me. I am thought of, even when I am angry...He still loves me.

It's insane how the enemy tries and sometimes succeeds in twisting some of the truths God has given us, but alas...God is faithful. Crazy faithful: He loves us with a passionate, jealous, and fervent love.

Matthew 8:26: "He replied, “You of little faith, why are you so afraid?” Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm."

Dear Father, I come to you tonight to pray for Your undying love and compassion. I pray that I will never be afraid as long as You are with me. I pray that the mustard seed of faith in You will be fruitful in my life. I pray that You rebuke all the lies and tribulations that the enemy has tried to throw at me. 

I pray for deliverance and that the Holy Ghost fire consumes my heart...that my ways will turn into Your ways. Lord, I pray that I see how crazy faithful You are and become more zealous for Your heart. I thank You merciful Father. I praise You Jesus. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Broken Hearts

I need to go to the mender of broken hearts.

Two days ago, I decided to clear the air with a young man I have been dating/friends with about where we were going with this. He said he didn't see us compatible and thus, reasoned to not bring anything up. As commendable as that is, it is not of we act all "friendly" together (I.e. confiding with each other about life to doing favors for each other). After the phonecall, I went to sleep, first thanking God that the ambiguity in the air is clear but two, not spend ANY MORE TIME with a random...even IF he is Christian.

Well, then I went to school and low and behold, stressed out left and right. Perhaps to the point of contemplating my life of "how I got here?" and "do you really want to be in grad school?"

Hah! Before the study session ended I called my mentor and told her I was so overwhelmed by this crap.

You know, I know the devil is having a frenzy seeing me freak out. I am just tired of FEELING so hurt and torn inside.

I'm like,"Lord where are you?"

Thursday, September 6, 2012

from my devotional today...all we need is REST

Pride, self-importance, creates a myopic world. You and your problems are the center of the universe. Every trial looks huge, and God seems far away and small. Fearful and self-absorbed, you may feel your life is careening out of control. David reminds you not to take yourself so seriously. Our God is unbelievably powerful, supervising gazillions of galaxies. He can hold you in His strong arms and protect you. Get off your high horse and humble yourself before Him.

Psalm 131
Lord, I have given up my pride
    and turned away from my arrogance.
I am not concerned with great matters
    or with subjects too difficult for me.
Instead, I am content and at peace.
As a child lies quietly in its mother's arms,
    so my heart is quiet within me.
Israel, trust in the Lord
    now and forever! Good News Version

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Graduate School Woes

My feet, my head, my skin are in some sort of tingling feelings right now. My commute from my friend's house to school is an hour and a half.

I don't have to pay for rent...all I have to do is clean up after myself and pay for my food.

Warning: I will probably hash out some details in my life in a nagging way. Okay, maybe not.

I wonder, Lord, this is not undergrad. However, this is graduate school and what is challenging me is time management. I just pray that you help me in this area. I wake up early now (6AM) and leave for class at 7AM. I come back to the house around 1PM to cook and nap (2 hours) and finally make it to the lab around 4:30. All I want to do is crash.

I worry about gaining wait because all the food in the physics lab room is nothing but trash. I eat a ton of fruits and veggies, walk around almost everywhere, and really just exhaust the heck out of myself.

I need peace daddy...peace...just peace.

Tranquility. I wonder, is THIS the right way to go father? Seriously...I know its hard but will it bring you glory and is it worth it?


Saturday, August 25, 2012

Words of Affirmation: Inner and Outer Beauty

Normally, I don't indulge in Oprah Winfrey's show because I don't have the time for it. But I decided to divulge in one of her "Life Classes" with T.D. Jakes as a guest speaker. I also decided to watch another video with guest speaker Cheryl Richardson.  Now this woman is something else.  She is all about words of affirmation which is amazing.  But for me, I like to align this with the Word of God. Then something came to my remembrance. My beautiful cousin Fran told my prayer group to write words of affirmation to help us in areas that we need to build. So I wrote one for Inner and Outer Beauty. Here goes:

Father, Your word says that, "Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. (Proverbs 31:30)" I know Daddy that I am altogether beautiful, and there is no flaw in me (Song of Sol. 4:7).

You have said,"Since you are precious and honored in my sight, and because I love not be afraid, for I am with you. (Isaiah 43:4,5)" For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mothers' womb (Psalm 139:13). I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.  Wonderful are you works; my soul knows it very well (Psalm 139:14).

Yet, I know that you do not look at my appearance or height of stature but you God sees not as man sees, for man looks at the outward appearance, but you Daddy look at the heart (1 Samuel 16:7).

Unrelated: My cousin Daph got married last weekend and of course I caught the bouquet. It was so cute. Even though I caught the bouquet, I have a ton of stuff to do to become the prayerful wife God has created me to be.

Thursday, August 2, 2012

Endow me, with talent

God has gifted each individual with their own talent(s).  Sometimes its hard to believe, because for me, its hard to see the obvious talent within me. I sometimes observe others at their highest in their talent and my insides quiver, wondering, whats my talent? Other times, I watch people at their normal, and they still seem magnificent.  They tend to grace their talent with such ease.  That talent for them can sometimes be challenging for me.

Olympic athletes do not become "olympic" athletes over night.  A lot of it is from sheer practice and determination.  Yet, they have this "spark" that needs cultivating to create them into the world class athlete that they are today.  I ponder and pray to the Lord, "what is my talent or ease-ability?" 

I don't get a response.

Or maybe I'm not listening hard enough.  Or paying attention to the things I love, but merely paying attention to the things that will produce an easy living or just the "acceptable" thing to do based off of my major in college and what people think should be my occupation or heart.  

In the shower this morning, I kept thinking, all I want is the Lord to strengthen me to live in this day and do what I have to do at work. I'm not miserable but extremely challenged here.  This is what I wanted right? It's not to say that I loathe my job, but quite the contrary.  I love my job but its the mental hurdle that is frustrating and makes me question: is this your will for my life Lord? As the question daunts closer and closer to the 17th, I keep asking God, "okay now or never!" Because the job or graduate program I choose will essentially (well maybe it won't) maneuver my life choices.  These choices I make now are crucial! Time is hard to get back.  Yes, God can grace us back the time we lost, but who wants to live in mistakes? 

I've gone through mistakes that lead to painful memories and mental scars that only Christ can heal.  But, what if I want to avoid that ALL together and live in His fulness? 

All I want to do is please Christ. All I want to do is live this life to the fullest for Him, no one else.

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

When he decides to move on

God is a very interesting being. He finds ways to answer my prayers in such startling ways.  I was thinking earlier that God couldn't surprise me not once nowadays because my life in the west coast has been amazing.  No drama here or there.  However, I may not be near my old problems or things I left but I walk with my character everywhere.  The question is: how do you live your life when everyone else has decided to move on without you?

That's where character seeps in.  Do you head for the Haagen Das ice cream or do you head to the Word? Right now, at this shocking time for me, I had two options: start popping off or release all emotions in this blog in hopes of God knowing my heart (and all of you).

What do you do when he moves on? You know, the guy you fell madly in love with one summer and spent the night underneath the stars?  What happens when he decides to get married and have kids with his girlfriend of X amount of years? What happens when you were not "invited" to the wedding because s u r e l y w h y would you be invited? 

What you do on. 

T.D. Jakes says this elegantly:

"For many women, the greatest tragedy is not the injury or injustice itself but the incapacitated soul left in its wake.  But I say to you that there is another woman inside of you.  She is smooth as satin and strong as steel.  Your self-esteem, your creativity, your wholeness will be reborn and renewed as you accept the freedom Jesus is holding out to you."

The only answer I got from here on out is: Jesus. Jesus is the answer. He's the only one who can heal the wounds that I thought were already mended from months upon months of grief and loneliness. It's funny when you go about your life thinking that you no longer are deeply connected with an individual and you happen to hear that they either got engaged or married and B A M your emotions hit you like a crushing cerulean wave!

But God is good.  This is what I prayed for...perseverance, strength, and self-control; the ability to MOVE on and not rushing to friends or men.  Please. My self-worth is known in Christ and He's the only one who could listen intently while healing me every bit He can.  Only He knows where my grief stems from.  Self-love is really important in this time.  This could be a place of vulnerability but I believe pointing my vulnerability to God is the best thing.  Being free from the chains of the past and embracing God's promises are a sure deal.  There's nothing more important than becoming the woman God has created me to be: restored and renewed.

In order for me to be restored and renewed is really setting my mind on the below scripture points:

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. -Philippians 4:8

Real talk. This walk in Christ is no joke. This ain't for the punks or those who are luke warm. This is a daily thing. An every second thing. While being a Christian may be a "Go to Churchhhh PRAISE THE LORD" blah blah, it doesn't matter. It's beyond human emotions. It's simply obeying His word and not be swayed by emotions. Because human beings are really evil beings. Our insides are not pure. Our motives are normally self-seeking. WE got to readjust our thinking to be like Christ to even maneuver our way through this world.

This ain't for the babies dog...this is straight talk, no chaser.

Monday, July 23, 2012

We witness His glory everyday

"The heavens declare the glory of God;
the skies proclaim the work of his hands.
Day after day they pour forth speech;
night after night they display knowledge."
Psalm 19:1-2

We are without excuse! God displays Himself everywhere from the sunrises to sunsets.  He displays His greatness through the waterfalls to the volcanic eruptions in remote areas.  He shows His love to us by waking us up every morning to experience another day to be with Him.  He extended forgiveness and the ability to commune with Him though our acceptance of His Son Jesus Christ...there is no veil between us and God. Christ ripped down that veil and let us walk through the corridors of God's palace.  How awesome :D

"For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities - his eternal power and divine nature - have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse."
Romans 1:20

We as human beings viewing large expansions of mountains to the complex constellations of our night sky, cannot say, that God is not real. He is greater than the Higgs Boson!

"How great are your works, O Lord, how profound your thoughts!"
Psalm 92:5

We should take some time and just meditate on how beautiful God is...and how creative He is. He was creative even when He made you:

"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well."
Psalm 139:13-14

Sunday, July 22, 2012

Life is simple, just find what makes you happy, right?

This must be how people really think nowadays.  Or maybe its never really changed...this actual thought.  But what if you find what makes you happy and who you can be happy with...can you truly be satisfied?

I'd like to say that this may be a possibility but it is only a mere possibility because people will disappoint and whatever might make you happy may not be there forever.

The only thing that will stay consistent with all trials in life is: God's love.
James 1:17 Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change.

It's always good to know that God is always consistent.

Plus, I just realized that this verse states: every GOOD gift and every PERFECT gift is from above.  So that means, the thing that you find that makes you happy and the person who can make you happy is from above.  From God.  So why should we doubt these perfect gifts from an amazingly perfect God to falter on us?  We shouldn't because if anything we should be striving to know the Father of lights whom is able to make all these things possible for us and more. :)  God's love remains the same...He's consistent and loyal.

More loyal than the things He's created.  More reliable than your electronics, boyfriends/girlfriend/spouse...whatever, house, money, etc. God is just amazing.

Malachi 3:6, "I, the Lord, do not change."

Isle of You

This song has been on repeat this past weekend ever since I found Christon Gray.  Amazing singer. 
"Hey Miss Amazing, you blow my mind, beautiful lady if you don't mind, I'd like to get away sunset in view stay here forever on the, I'll love you I'll hold you dear give you your roses while you're still here. You take my breathe away, my words are few, just know forever i love you...and Lord knows I deserve nothing, I got everything yes i do oh..."

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Love God, Love Each other

This is normally a very strange subject because, many people in the church view homosexuality as a sin that holds more weight than any other sin.  However, lets think about this:
1. What does God hate?(Proverbs 6:16-19)
16  There are six things the Lord hates, 
    seven that are detestable to him:
17         haughty eyes, 
        a lying tongue, 
        hands that shed innocent blood, 
18         a heart that devises wicked schemes,
        feet that are quick to rush into evil, 
19         a false witness who pours out lies 
        and a person who stirs up conflict in the community.
The main one that seems relevant in this topic is: "A person who stirs up conflict in the community." It seems that people point out homosexualities and stir up such drama, which the Lord truly hates.  

2. What does God love? (1 John 4:9-11)
This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. 10 This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. 11 Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.
God loves us. Period. Yet, He wants us to be clear that Jesus has sacrificed himself for our sins.  We are washed away and since God loves us, we ought to love each other.
3. What does God require of us? (John 13:34-35)

34 “A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. 35 By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.”

He requires that we love each other.
In regard to homosexuality, Paul says it eloquently, (paraphrased) that the law was not made for the righteous people but the unrighteous.  The law was set to let sinners see and know what is immoral (or wrongful) to God (1 Timothy 1: 8-11).
Yet, here in 1 Corinthians 6:9-10 states:
Or do you not know that wrongdoers will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived:Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor men who have sex with men[a]10 nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God.
So before we go off on homosexuals, this scripture also discuses those who are having sex outside of marriage, idolaters, cheating spouses, thieves, greedy people, drunks, liars, someone who deprives rightful $$$ to someone else...will not inherit the kingdom of God if and only if (1 Corinthians 6:11):
11 And that is what some of you were. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.
This scripture might argue that this person can possibly be gay and be "washed and sanctified" but if we have the Spirit of God in us, we would be able to discern what is immoral(or wrongful) to God and be inclined to follow His voice. 
That was probably way too long but, my opinion:
I would still support my church if my pastor is preaching SOUND doctrine, regardless if there are homosexuals in the church.  If they are trying to get closer to God and know His voice, they will be inclined by the holy Spirit...not mere man.
Same sex marriage is immoral, however, I won't hate the couple because of their marriage.  Instead, I'll love them because honestly, they are people.  God requires us to love them but not love their sin. 
For our pastors, I believe they should be so close to God that they can feel Him breathing on their necks.  This is a very important time for our society and our pastors need to be equipped. Pastors and sheep may be going astray, but God is ALWAYS there and ALWAYS present.  He will appoint those who can do the job. I believe that.   

Friday, July 20, 2012

Motives: Men and women cannot be friends. Sorry.

Do you remember being a little girl in the playground, running around the cement parking lot pavement playing tag?  I do. I remember that the school building was the "safe haven" from the perpetrator trying to tag us "IT". I suppose it was easier back then where you could snicker and throw sand in your crushes face while secretly hoping they could see beyond your rude actions that perhaps, they see you as a possible love.
Dawson & Joey...clearly you just can't be "friends".

However, this is the real world.  We live in a world where, acting like an immature adult is not only a turn-off, but truly shows how much you have not grown.  Have you ever seen the 40 year old men wanting to date the 21 year old women? Besides the age difference and the huge possibility that the old man just wants a youthful face around him, it is quite common that this man might be dealing with some internal drama: i.e. crazy divorce. That divorce just might be a result from his selfish ways and lets not forget the ex-wife's contributions.  I'm just stating for the sake of the argument, that men who date women who are significantly younger than them are either dealing with: anxiety of their age, depression because they may not feel attractive as they age, and resentment toward women their age who might view themselves superior.

Either way, lets face it, people are insecure.  People will try to boost themselves up anyway possible.  You just have to be conscious of people's motives.  Sometimes its good and many times can be bad.

For instance, I have an amazing friend named Jacob who is very handsome, athletic, and intelligent.  He didn't get into his new found "sexy" until junior year of college.  Now, a recent grad who will be attending graduate school in the fall, he has gotten massive amount of text messages, e-mails, and phone calls from various women wanting to date him.  Unfortunately, my dear friend is naive. He believes these women want to be his "Friend" but lets be frank: No woman will EVER step up to a man unless, unless, she was interested.  Point-blank.  Or when she needs something.

And that something is really "someone" who is stable and nice.  That he is. Moreover, he just seemed so nascent in regard to this new treatment. I mean, you're an attractive young man that is having problems distinguishing between a friend and a possible love.  There should be no ambiguity. Things are clear in the first 5 minutes of conversation: you can simply tell if someone is interested in you in the slightest if they keep entertaining the conversation. We could argue that this is social psychology or just realness.

Well, dear Jacob is now having issues with groping the fact that men and women cannot truly be friends.  And that makes me question his thoughts: maybe he thinks we aren't friends, or that possibly he thinks I might be interested in more. Well good!  I need this man to take a hint. #shakeshead

Anyways, thats the end of my hypothetical statements and what-if's.

What you should get out of it is this: people have motives.  Women who approach men are as malicious as you think [well not malicious but they have a plan!]. And men should not be so naive.  OH OH and men and women cannot be friends!

Love !== Romance

Have you ever felt like you went back to your vomit?

Reminiscing about past loves that you try to forget.  The love you once had for them now seems trivial.  Was that even love?

Simple answer: no. If you're going back to your vomit, aka, sin, let that go.  Let the whole thought go.  Let romance go. All of that is from the media.  The media wants to shove into our throats what love is.  But:

love ! == romance;

Love isn't romance.  Romance may make you "feel" love, but it is some fictitious representation of what love is.  Let it go.

Friday, July 13, 2012

Remaining faithful in a relationship? What?

A friend of mine, Michael* recently told me about a "hook-up" he had with an old college friend of his.  Normally, I would be like, "Okay...why are you telling me this," but this time it was different.  This man is in a relationship with someone that he "loves" and does not want to harm.  However, I look at the situation as this: you clearly have immense feelings for your girlfriend but you are quick to "hook-up" with someone else? I started having questions in my mind such as, "Does she know you're a cheater?" "Do you have an agreement with your girlfriend on an open relationship?" "Why would you ever cheat on her?" "What is wrong with you?" among others.


But the real issue at hand is: he thinks that this is perfectly normal. *Ahem* Excuse me? Normal? Normality? Expected? Dude, are you serious?

Well, after he tells me about his quick "hook-up," he glares at me and says, "you're judging me!" You're feeling guilty now because I won't "cosign" to your actions.  Why would I ever cosign to someone cheating on their significant other?

I felt tempted to Facebook the girl and let her know that she should keep her guard up.  Yet, I remembered, I will never get into someone's relationship. It's just a written rule in my heart.  I believe people automatically know the type of person they are dealing with.  This woman has to be well aware of what kind of boyfriend he is.  He has expressed to her the specific sexual background he has attained throughout his years in undergrad.  There is possibly no way for her to be that naive to believe that this man would automatically change because of a Facebook relationship status change. Please save me the dramatics.

In his arrogance the wicked man hunts down the weak, who are caught in the schemes he devises.  He boasts of the cravings of his heart; he blesses the greedy and reviles the Lord. Psalm 10:2-3

Men of this world do not have a concern for their loved ones really. I'm slowly but surely seeing this.  There is no guilt in their hearts.  There is no doubt in their minds that their carnal nature is evil.  They just believe that they should live out they're coveting and indulging ways.

In his pride the wicked does not seek him; in all his thoughts there is no room for God. Psalm 10:4

How can you love someone but be so selfish? How can you love someone but cheat and lie to them?  How can you love someone when you purposely hold information back?