Sunday, February 8, 2015

Whewwwwwww fell off a couple days but I'm back!


Today is my lazy Sunday. Its been raining all last night and this morning. I've made some breakfast and would like to tell you what I ate:

1 sliced cucumber
1/4 tomato
3 turkey bacon slices
Egg whites
speared indian sauce
drizzle of flax seed topping
corn and black bean topping


1 banana
3 strawberries
1/2 avocado
10 small pieces of pineapple
1/4 apple


I was full to say the least.

I do want to plan my day and I realize --- will I have time to finish the following?

1. Lesson Plan
2. Read Rich Dad Poor Dad
3. Finish reading Learning How to Walk (by Cornelius Lindsey)?
4. Start my application for this gig
5. Watch American Civil War youtube videos for my kids this week
6. Finish progress reports
7. Meeting with counselor

Whew. My. LIFE.

And yesterday was bananas... I felt extremely oppressed and it felt so negative.
I was spearheading Saturday school and the kids were pretty annoying to say the least. Then I had some time to lesson plan and kick it. After, I went to watch SELMA with my students. After, I bumped into EmChen and her friend. We had shared tears after watching the film. Later, they left me and I was in Chipotle with a group of pre-pubescent children. It was...too funny. I had many laughs and I do cherish these moments outside of school grounds. I will say, its amazing to see my students as people and not these "robots" that I feel the American school system tries to create. They are all unique people.


And my acne has cleared up. :) I've been using Benzoyl Peroxide and the Burt's Bee line (the exfoliator wipes are handy when I'm too lazy to wash my face).

Lastly, I need to get the FIRE in me before I go to church. I need JESUS. SERIOUSLY.

I don't want to be the church pew hugging christian anymore. I want to be more bold in my walk. And I've been pushed last week to speak my mind. Luckily, Natasha has been a great help.

Thursday, January 29, 2015

Meal for today

I need to dig deep in the Word today. I have been meditating on a specific book in the Word (Hebrews mainly).

Lets dig it:

1. Soup with green peas, chicken, and veggies
2. Peanut butter whole grain muffin sandwich
3. Eggs and turkey bacon

1. Kale salad
2. Banana
3. Two mandarines

1. Not sure yet

For the Word:
1. Hebrews 6:4
Once you know the word of God and decide its not for you, it will be difficult to get back to repentance with such a mindset. Its as though they keep crucifying Jesus over and over again.

1. I find myself lusting all over again. Its bad. And it doesn't help when you chat it up with co-workers about it. Before it wasn't a big deal, but now I repent. I shouldn't judge men based on such shallow qualities like their outer appearance. Especially my brothers in Christ.
2. I need to discipline myself, in addition to working out but speaking life. I do NOT want to get back in the same mindset of foolishness.

Dear Lord,
I rebuke all thoughts of unrighteousness out of my system in Jesus name. I burn such thoughts in the lake of FIRE! Lord, I pray that YOU are on the pedestal of my heart. YOU are the one who has my eyes. YOU are the one who has my attention. Lord I pray for grace and reassurance in this new MINDSET! I know that this is a daily, moment to moment persevering walk. I pray for you conviction in my heart and the BOLDNESS to change.
In Jesus NAME, AMEN.

Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Cheat Day. :(

1. Church's Two Piece Chicken (I tore the skin off so I wouldn't feel too guilty eating the fried chicken)
2. Banana
3. Vitamin C drink

1. Kale salad with sweet potatoes
2. Banana
3. Two small wheat muffins with peanut butter

1. Eggs and turkey bacon
2. Hot tea
3. Hot soup with what tortilla

Today was pretty bad because my co-worker bought me some dinner. I initially wanted to go with him to the grocery store for chicken broth to make chicken soup. I'm feeling under the weather and need to knock this cold out before it gets worse. However, this man insisted on getting me Church's Chicken...I realize he's the kind of guy who will not take no for an answer.

I'm going to have to let him know with some very concrete boundaries. Or just tell him I'm moving. LOL.

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

What did I eat today?

1. Bible Verses: AM (6AM), PM (5PM - James 1:4-7 "Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord.")
2. Podcast: Robert Morris
3. Small Group - Recap on ARK Retreat.


1. Small cup of milestone soup from Whole foods
2. Baguette
3. Homemade Green Pea Soup with Flax Seeds
4. Hot Water

1. Kale salad with Beef
2. Peanut butter whet english muffin sandwich
3. Apple
4. Banana
5. 2 Carrots
6. Three cups of tea

1. Eggs, corn, hummus turkey bacon
2. Strawberry and Banana Smoothie


1. 23 Minute Jog
2. 40 minute bike ride (to and from work)


How am I feeling? Good. I was able to cut some time between working out to going to Small Group by using my work credit card to pay for my transit. Got a ride from one of my co-workers. So I was able to come back before 10PM to blog a bit and input class grades.

I DO want to purchase the Bethel Music album that came out last night! Whew. Such an awesome group. But I'll wait until next month. I need to be more thrifty with my money.

Praise God today has been productive.

I'm also feeling a SMALL bit nasal-ish but pray for my healing to not get sick. I have been rebuking it quietly, but I'll be rebuking it tonight, along with my acne. LOL

Outside of that, I have been rebuking inappropriate thoughts to rude thoughts. So far, I feel more in tune with God and conscious that this is indeed a spiritual battle.

Monday, January 26, 2015

Day One of Rebuking Cystic Acne

Today was the first step of not being a victim to acne. I have been pretty active with what I have been eating today. However, I realize, that meal preparation ended up being an hour. I showed up to work at 8AM today, which is pretty late for me. I'm usually in the doors by 7:15AM.

1. Eggs, turkey bacon, corn, mushrooms, and red peppers
2. Hot green pea soup with mixed veggies

1. Whole grain muffin with alfalfa sprouts, avocado, red pepper hummus, and sliced beef
2. Dino Kale salad with cranberries&raisins, mushrooms, red peppers, soy sauce (less sodium), and balsamic vin., and flax seed toppings.

1. Green pea soup with mixed veggies.
2. Whole Grain Flat bread with refried beans, salsa, and avocado topping.

I've been biking to and from work. Still, I see this mini pouch and I am going to rebuke it and work it out. 

I will mentally bring myself into committing to working out again. 

Next, TIME management needs to be addressed! My time has been sabotaged by the lack of planning in my life. 

Wake up: 6AM
Out the door: 7:30-7:45AM
Work: 8AM-5PM
Arrive home: 5:30 PM
Dinner Time: 6PM-7PM

From 7PM-9PM I don't really have a schedule. I want to use that time to work out, lesson plan, fill out job/scholarship applications, pray, worship, and pick up a new hobby. 

Throughout the week though:
Tuesday: Small Group 7:30-9:30PM
Friday: Off work at 2:30

M,W,Th, F ---> I could use those days to do the above.
But I really need to make a decision on what to do with my time. I want to be a better teacher. I want to be a better Christian woman fired up for the Lord. And I want to get in shape. So

Alright, so what I could do is this:
Throughout the week though:
Monday: Lesson Plan for an hour; Input Grades; Spend time with God
Tuesday: Small Group 7:30-9:30PM (Spend time with God)
Wednesday: Lesson Plan for an hour; Input Grades; Spend time with God
Thursday: Lesson Plans due; Spend time with God
Friday: Off work at 2:30; Staff meetings; Hang out with friends; Spend time with God
Saturday: Hobby... ; Spend time with God
Sunday: Spend time with GodSpend time with GodSpend time with GodSpend time with GodSpend time with God!!!!!

I want to pick up a new hobby. What exactly? This requires some thought. Hum.... I also want to earn some extra money and this is where I need to pray.

But money is not as important as spending time with God.

In terms of growth, I will be praying for the following:

1. Being BOLD in proclaiming Christ's name!
2. Praying for those who do not know the Lord!
3. Praying for my family/friends!
4. Praying for the city of Oakland/Berkeley for revival.

Many hopes and aspirations.

Sunday, January 25, 2015


2015 has been interesting so far.

I have been able to close many doors to make room with the new doors to open up. For instance, Carter has moved into my neighborhood (after the assistance of myself) and has made it a point to "reconnect". The old me, perhaps, would hesitantly reply, "Sure" but the more reassured me said, "No thanks...You don't like church, and knowing that, this probably won't work." And the sad part is, I have prayed for his growth for the past couple of years. He's a devout atheist and has proclaimed in with such pride. I wish him the best of luck.

And then there is the dream school. The place that rejected me initially a couple of years ago. I was not surprised back then. It was February 2012 and I thought that once I finished my internship in the beautiful Berkeley, I would find myself in the suburbs in Michigan. Yet, I received a rejection letter at 2AM while walking down to 7-11 for a snack. I was upset, but a sigh of relief swept over me. I was actually glad that things didn't go that way. Actually, I don't think I knew I was glad. I just felt that things were changing into the unknown. 

The unknown turned into staying in that area. I was able to make connections and meet people along the way that would shape and mold me. People who hurt my feelings and people who built me up. Still, I moved forward in knowing that forcing myself in a square box when I'm not a square peg deemed uncomprehend-able in my mind. I was lost. Again, I was lost but I was finally found.

I remember the vision I had while walking up Junipero Ave after classes. I saw myself teaching a group of students physics. Besides finding out that I owed a couple thousands of dollars, for me to be in the career field to teach excited me. I didn't know how it would happen but thankfully, God had a plan set out before me.

Two years after that vision, I am here, in my bedroom, in a daze. The school that initially rejected me now wants me. That school represents a myriad set of individuals that have come in and out of my life. I reapplied knowing that was the only place I wanted. I went 100% in. Only place I applied to because I knew, if God wanted me to be a teacher, He would show out and have me in my dream school. I didn't have another school in my heart to go to. I only had this one in mind because of the close proximity to family. Indeed, the key idea for me here is my faith. My faith has grown from worrying about my future to, "Well, if God doesn't want this place for me, then He will set up the next steps. HE HAS BEEN FAITHFUL." No doubt, he has been faithful.

Dealing with cystic acne as a black woman

I'm going through cystic acne on my face and want it to stop.

I've been asking friends about recommendations on how to keep clear skin and I have been googling advice.

A couple of tips have come up:
1. Eat leafy greens
2. Avoid DAIRY (and I've recently started the Greek Yogurt binge...)
3. Include Fiber in your diet through Chia Seeds, Flax Seeds, and grainy breads

I'm also going to keep in mind bacteria prone areas that my cheeks may be exposed to:
1. Cell phone
2. Pillowcases
3. Hair

I'm going to keep my hair out of my face, wipe my cellphone clean, and change my pillowcases weekly. I'm going to have to set reminders, but I realize how crucial it is.

I've never dealt with such acne and I want to combat it!

Additionally, I just bought Lactaid, so I am sure I need to return it. :(

Some new things I'll be doing for my skin regime:
1. Once a week: Indian Clay Mask
2. Exfoliate (even though I hate this process!)
3. Drink more water
4. Set alarms as reminders to do such things!